Am I talking to myself? Narcissism and other things.

Since I believe that this blog is going to be all about the things that flit through my mind throughout the day, and since I have a huge list of things that I have already decided would make good blogs, I am going to simply write a preface blog and then commence with the blogging. Things that you may need to know in order to navigate an archive that may exist in the future:

I recently moved to Las Vegas and am having a very hard time adjusting.

I am from Minnesota originally. This is only important if you know anything about Minnesotans. It plays into my thought processes.

I am an abstract random personality type with type A tendencies.

I think fast, learn fast, talk fast, type (a little slower than I used to), and have no constructive outlet. Instead I choose a creative outlet, writing. With time you will come to discover that these two synonyms are not mutually inclusive.

I am very into numbers: 3, 5, 9, etc. This means that I had to make up a fifth thing to put on my list.

Confession: I have no idea how to begin a blog. I feel as if I should have begun when I was fifteen and actually had something to say. I am really playing this whole undertaking by ear. However, I want to leave no literary avenue untapped. This means making myself very uncomfortable in font a (potentially) expansive audience.

As you read I am sure you will notice several asides in parenthesis (). I assure you that this does not mean that I do not know that those ideas can be integrated into the sentence or omitted. This is the prescription that would be recommended by any high school English teacher, and indeed college English Professors. I write these asides because that is what they are, asides. Alternatively, one learns the rules in order to break them.

This brings me to my first point: The narcissism that is required to build a blog. You have to have some balls to start a blog. (Or you have to be very angry at something.) Let us examine this notion for a moment. I am writing to you, a potential reader. You do not exist, but I have to assume that you will read this in order to write to you. This is a completely different approach to writing than we have had before. We see hints of this in journalism; editorials are a good example of a medium which a single author is writing to a readership. However, blogging is different because I/we are not writing to an existing readership.

I suppose my contemplation of the subject speaks to my inexperience and I will be getting a few angry comments (I hope) saying that I have completely missed the point of blogging. Their comments will be along the lines of: “You should write as if you are writing a news article,” “It’s about a need to express yourself, not about a readership.” Sure. I welcome your comments and hope it ignites ferocious conversation. So much conversation that you have to monitor what I write just to tell me what an incredible moron I am.

I suppose I am doing this simply to stroke my ego. I suppose I am doing this to get things off my chest. I supposed I am trying to get a feel for blogging. If it sucks, I’m out.